The Year in Review

Holiday greetings to all of our friends and family~

            This year has been a busy and interesting year for our family, so we would like to share some highlights with you.  We hope this letter finds you thankful, contented, and blessed.

            Our family has much to be thankful for this Christmas.  We started out this year by taking a trip to Florida in February.  We celebrated Liliahna’s birthday with Winnie the Pooh and Friends on Feb. 4^th.  We visited Disney World, Epcot, Sea World, Animal Kingdom, St. Augustine(oldest city in the US), and Kennedy space center.  The kids had a blast, Disney’s Magic Kingdom was their favorite, Epcot was our favorite.

            We added a few animals to our menagerie this year – and got rid of a few last year.  We no longer have any cows, but we did buy a couple goats to try milking next year(this will be Ondrea’s project).  We picked up a free miniature horse that Savannah is trying(unsuccessfully so far) to tame.  We participated in 4-H this year. 4-H created a very busy season running around the fair-grounds in August.  We had a great time seeing Chad’s brother Clyde and his family at Thanksgiving.  Their kids are sure cute!   We have continued homeschooling, and this has been our best year ever – the kids are doing quite well(most of the time)!  We have taken a few field trips with a homeschool co-op this fall, and a couple of our own.  We studied Idaho History this fall, so took a trip to the Coeur D’ Alene museum and a trip out to Wallace/Murray to learn some mining history.

Chad had a knee surgery this fall, and is recovering well.  He enjoys spending time with his family, writing in our blog(http://bigkiddfamily.blogspot.com), and working around the mini-farm.

Ondrea had two shoulder surgeries this year, and is also recovering well.  Chad and Ondrea both had opportunities to serve and take care of one another during this season.  Even though recovery had its challenges, it was actually a wonderful time to slow down, be more relational, and learn how to delegate some responsibilities.  Ondrea is still homeschooling all of the children and loving it(even though it is challenging).  She really enjoys gardening.  We had a successful garden this year, in spite of the shoulder and even branched out to some more flower gardening.  We are still digging carrots and picking kale out of our garden as well as growing herbs and lettuce inside.

           

Silas (14) has continued to grow in responsibility, and is doing great in his homeschooling.  He is getting straight A’s so far this year(we are trying out a new grading system).  Silas raised 2 turkeys this year(we ate one for thanksgiving, it was great) and he and Savannah each raised a lamb(also very yummy).  He is continuing to excel at the piano and will be starting an internationally recognized program through Carnegy Hall next month.  He likes to garden, play guitar, take care of his goat(Jimmy), and is excitedly looking forward to “the Hobbit” movie this month.  Silas did archery in 4-H this year, and likes to golf when he can get time.  He and Savannah plan to raise a bottle-calf next year, and sell it the following year for some profit.  Silas also likes to cook – we have had many wonderful meals and desserts prepared by him this year.  Since he also likes to eat(a lot), this is a logical thing for him to do.  “Hmm… I’m hungry, Mom, can I make a batch of cookies this afternoon”? Silas will be taking Driver’s Ed this spring, and will do well I’m sure.  He has had a lot of practice driving the riding Lawn-mower around the farm.

           

Savannah (12) is becoming quite the young woman.  She loves working with animals, singing, listening to music, and photography.  She took riding lessons this year, and has become quite competent with a horse.  She got a Grand champion prize for her Pet Rabbit 4-H project this year at fair.  Savannah also has a very unique sense of humor.  Savannah is doing well in her music lessons, playing the piano and singing.  She has a beautiful voice, is quite talented and loves to perform.  She is also doing very well in her school this year and has beautiful handwriting (her favorite subject).  She is incredibly talented and creative.  She is also a big Lord of the Rings fan and looking forward to The Hobbit

           

Liliahna (9) loves to help and is quite the encourager and gift giver.  She enjoys doing crafts, sewing, cooking, and helping with the little ones.  She has a very sweet and caring spirit.  Liliahna did “Cake decorating” in 4-H this year, the rest of the family did a good job eating the cakes she made each month.  Liliahna has quite the imagination, and she comes up with some great little plays and skits that she and the other children act out for us.  She is also doing great in her music lessons and continuing to improve at the Piano.  Liliahna has a passion for China and dreams of adopting children from there someday.  She is excited to begin learning Chinese next year as well as study about it.  She also loves to garden too and talks about starting a plant nursery someday.

           

Elijah (7) – Is a very passionate and expressive young man.  His middle name is “David”, and we see a lot of similarities between him and David in the Bible.  He is a worshiper, and very emotional.  Elijah likes to play with Legos and likes to play with his “Lord of the Rings” action figures with his brothers and sisters.  He is quite acrobatic, so to keep him from bouncing off the walls too much, we put him in a gymnastics program for a few months this fall.  We also bought a trampoline this fall, and he has learned quite a few flips and bounces on it.  Elijah learned how to ride his bike with no training wheels this summer!

           

Evangelina (5) is a very interesting and imaginative person.  She can sit and play with her toys, read, or color for hours.  She loves to play with her ponies, dolls, read books with mom and dad, and also loves to play with her brothers and sisters. She participated in a princess ballet class this summer, and was adorable!  She loves to play dress-up, do anything involving imagination, and has quite the sense of humor.  She is doing wonderfully in school and would go through weeks of curriculum in a single sitting if she could.  She also has learned to read this year.

           

Peter (3) is very energetic and joyful, truly a “people” person.  He likes to interact with people and play with his siblings when he gets the chance.  He likes to play with Thomas the train and toy cars.  He got glasses at the beginning of the year since he is near-sighted and has one eye that wanders.  He called them “Blasses” at first, and the name stuck.  “Petesey, where’s your blasses?”.  We are patching one eye to attempt to correct the wandering eye now.  This doesn’t seem to slow him down much though!  Peter is also quite smart, and studies his toys intently to figure out how they work.  One morning, as Ondrea was getting him out of his crib, he announced quite passionately, “Mom, there’s a genius in my bed!” He also likes to say, “that’s Brilliant”.

Looking forward to 2013, we plan to do 4-H again.  Also, Ondrea got an idea to start a small business, which we are moving forward with a little at a time(Riverbend Spice Company).  We have some ideas to write some children’s books(with the children participating in the writing process), and a book about rethinking Church/Life/God from the perspective of God’s Love rather than the perspective of Rules/Religion/Tradition. We have no more surgeries planned(thank God), and we are looking forward to growing in our relationship with God, our family, and the other special people God is bringing into our life.  God is so good, he is everything to us, our healer, creator, helper, encourager, forgiver, loving Father, closest friend, Savior, and center of our world!

Love & Blessings,

Chad, Ondrea, Silas, Savannah, Liliahna, Elijah, Evangelina, and Peter Kidd

God is everything you need

I was meditating on and praying about who God is to me a couple days ago.  Personalizing and meditating upon who God is to us is one of the most important things we can do.  What we think about God is the most important thing in life.  What he is for us and who he wants to be for us personally.  God loves us, he enjoys us, he is deeply personal, as well as being mighty on our behalf.  If we have a distant, impersonal view of God, our picture of God needs to be re-drawn.  How you see God determines how you view yourself and how you view others.  The more you have a wrong view of God, the more religious and legalistic you will become.  The Pharisees are people who lost sight of what God is really like, so they couldn't receive Jesus when he came, even though he did great signs and wonders.

We must answer the same question that Jesus asked Peter, "Who do you say that I am".  Our having the right picture of him is critical.  In fact, so critical, that it was upon this revelation that Jesus said he would build his church.  The picture of God that we have is our bedrock, he builds the church on the image of himself that we have in our heart.  With the right image of God, hell cannot prevail against us.

Here is a list of things that God is to me that I received while meditating on this the other day.

God, You are my peace, my righteousness, my provider, my love, my strength, my life, my shelter, my strength, my best friend, my savior, my maker, my redeemer, my healer, my light, my truth, my shepherd, my bread, my water, my sustainer, my king, my comforter, my guide, my greatest encourager, my example, my teacher, my father, my standard, my holiness, my breath of life, my center, my hero, my champion, my caregiver, my rock, my fortress, my refuge, my strong tower, my defender, my fear-vanquisher, my storm calmer, my liberator, the patient gardener of my soul, my foundation, my master-builder, my priest, my perfect sacrifice, my older brother, my fire, my desire, my exceedingly great reward, my rewarder, my master, my grace for every situation, my everything, my gate to life and the Kingdom, my heaven, my hope, my reason for living, my welcoming arms of love, lifter of my head, my judge, discerner and revealer of the secrets of my heart, my Head, author and finisher of my faith, my completer, my wholeness, binder of my brokenness, object of my worship, my forgiver, you hide me from my enemies, you are the lover of my enemies, my seed sower, my gift giver, and my miracle worker.

God loves you so much and desires to reveal himself to you in all these ways. He wants to be everything you need, for every situation.  I am finding that if I allow God to be these things to me at different times, my picture of him enlarges and I become more aware of his love and his presence.

Thankfulness

This week, our family has been pondering the things we are thankful for.  My wife acted upon a great idea she had last week.  She painted a large, leafless tree on a  mirror in our house. Then, everyone in our family was given leaves to write down the things we are thankful for.  We then taped all the leaves onto the "Thankful Tree".   The tree ended up with about a hundred leaves on it.  Most of the things people write are about God, the blessings we have, and the people in our lives.  The tree has been a reminder of all the things we have to be thankful for and the tremendous amount of blessings we have in our family.

Ondrea and I have been increasingly understanding what a key role thankfulness has in our lives.  It enables us overcome negativity, doubt, and bad attitudes.  I guess that is why Paul tells us to give thanks in all things in Eph. 4:20. "always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ."

As I was praying a couple days ago, I decided to read Hebrews 10.  I began to get insight into some  things we as Christians can ponder and be truly thankful for. As a result, I felt led to incorporate a time of communion during our family's upcoming thanksgiving day celebration.

Hebrews 10
v.1-4
The law is only a shadow of the good things that are coming—not the realities themselves. For this reason it can never, by the same sacrifices repeated endlessly year after year, make perfect those who draw near to worship. ² Otherwise, would they not have stopped being offered? For the worshipers would have been cleansed once for all, and would no longer have felt guilty for their sins. ³ But those sacrifices are an annual reminder of sins. ⁴ It is impossible for the blood of bulls and goats to take away sins.

v.11-14
¹¹ Day after day every priest stands and performs his religious duties; again and again he offers the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins. ¹² But when this priest had offered for all time one sacrifice for sins, he sat down at the right hand of God, ¹³ and since that time he waits for his enemies to be made his footstool. ¹⁴ For by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy.
#1:  Christ has paid for our sin completely!
We don't have to offer animal sacrifices for our sins any more! Jesus has done away with the need for any further sacrifice for sin.  This may seem very elementary, but if you ponder it - think about how amazing and revolutionary this must have been for the Jewish People of the 1st century!  If you have ever owned Goats, Sheep, or Cows - you will also see the significance of Jesus Sacrifice!  I am thankful that I don't need to offer any of our goats at the temple to pay for my sins this year.  Our family has 3 goats, Gracie, Jimmy, and Promise.  They have become like Pets to us - how sad it would be(especially for our children) if we had to slaughter one of them in order to be forgiven for our sins!!  And then, on top of that, it wouldn't even fully erase the guilt, it would only serve to cover our sin until the next time of sacrifice.  Animal sacrifices didn't really pay the price for sin, they just pointed to the one who actually could take away the sins - Jesus!  The animal sacrifices were a costly reminder of the consequences and terribleness of sin. 
v. 17-18

Then he adds: “Their sins and lawless acts I will remember no more.”

And where these have been forgiven, sacrifice for sin is no longer necessary.

#2:  Since God doesn't remember our sins any more, neither should we!
We have been cleansed from sin - we are no longer sinners, we are saints!  The sacrifice of Jesus has taken all our sins as far away as the east is from the west.  ALL OUR SINS - PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE! 
How amazing that we don't need to be reminded of our sin any longer.  In fact, this passage(along with v. 2,3) seems to be alluding to the truth that because of what Jesus did, we don't need to be pondering, replaying, or beating ourselves up about our sinfulness any more!  If the point of the sacrificial system was to remind people of their sins - the point of Jesus' sacrifice was to cleanse us of guilt so we can move on from and forget about our sins!  Of course, we will remember our sins in our minds at times, but the guilt and condemnation attached to them can be be erased!!
As our family celebrates communion this week - we see it as a celebration of Jesus' sacrifice in taking away our sins and guilt. It is not a time to grimly reflect on our sinfulness and awfulness - it is a time to reflect on God's goodness and be thankful for all Christ has done! We remember that the blood he shed was costly, we remember that his broken body paid the price for our freedom.  However, we do not reflect on our guilt and awfulness, trying to dredge up feelings of guilt and remorse.  We are not guilty any more!  We are cleansed, purified, righteous, holy, new creations.

v 19-22
¹⁹ Therefore, brothers and sisters, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, ²⁰ by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, ²¹ and since we have a great priest over the house of God, ²² let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith brings, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.

#3:  We are now children of God!
We can boldly and confidently be in God's presence because of the precious blood of Jesus!  Hallelujah!  We have access to God's presence at all times, in fact, God lives in us!  We are the temple of the Holy Spirit.  We can draw near to God in faith, believing that we are pure and right with God.  There is no place for guilt or shame because we have been cleansed and purified once and for all.  It is finished!  This is the most exciting aspect of salvation to me - being his child.  We are "brothers and sisters", we are members of the family of God!  I have a relationship with God, he is my friend!

Conclusion:
 I am so thankful that my life is becoming "Christ-centric", instead of "Sin-centric".  There is such freedom in a confident relationship with God - believing that he sees me as pure, Holy, and "in" Christ.  There is no need to grovel or make up for my mistakes.  He loves me and accepts me as I am because I am in Christ, who is righteous and perfect.  Therefore I am righteous and perfect.  I am confident that my name is written in heaven, and I have an incredible inheritance that will last for all eternity.  Now that is something to be thankful about!!

Luke 10:20
However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven.”

Hebrews 12:23
to the church of the firstborn, whose names are written in heaven. You have come to God, the Judge of all, to the spirits of the righteous made perfect,

Husbands love your Wives

Eph. 6:25
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her

How are we husbands to love our wives?  I have been on a journey to discover this over the last couple years.  I realized how much I had really failed to love my wife in the years before.  I think there were 2 main problems.

1st problem - unhealed wounds
I needed healing for many lies I had believed from my past.  I took many of the things she would say to me as personal rejection.  Many of the patterns of conflict we encountered were due to the grid I viewed life through.  Therefore, any appeal from her that even hinted at the fact that I wasn't meeting her needs in some way was immediately taken personally and defensive walls would go up.  Over the last couple years, with my wife's unconditional love and healing prayer, God has healed me and set me free from many childish ideas and ways of reacting.  I have also been learning to feel.  We men have a difficult time with emotion, and this was a big one for me.  I still have far to go, but God has done more than I could ever imagine!

2nd problem - wrong view of authority
I covered much of this in my post about the husband as the priest of the Home. 
http://bigkiddfamily.blogspot.com/2011/11/man-as-priest-of-home.html

I wanted to add some stuff here about this issue as it relates to how a husband learns to love his wife.  Of course, it also applies to wives loving their husbands.

We learned through some teaching videos we watched last year that there are basically 3 types of relationships that many husbands and wives will find themselves in. My wife and I disagree with some of the psychological pidgeon-holing on some of the videos, but we did take some very valuable things from it.
http://lovingonpurpose.com/

1.  I matter, you don't - (The controller)  This occurs when one partner dominates the relationship.  Their vision, decisions, dreams are all that matter.  The weaker partner never has much to say and they just always go along with the stronger partner.  This is because the stronger partner forces their way(always wins) and does not have enough respect for the thoughts, feelings, and wisdom of the weaker partner.

2. You matter, I don't - (The doormat) In this type of relationship, the dominating person is not the problem. The problem lies in a wrong view believed by the person who is weaker.  This type of person lives to only serve and meet the needs of the other.  They will never speak up or let their needs, thoughts, or feelings be known.  This may sound holy, submissive, and very Christian-like, however, this person will typically breed hidden resentments and feelings of being un-cared for.  They never make their thoughts known because they believe they don't matter and they probably won't be listened to anyways.  These people will many times be nice to you to your face, but the moment your back is turned will spew out all kinds of anger and resentment.

3. You matter, and so do I -  (Healthy relationship).  Both partners have a high respect for one another's thoughts, feelings, and needs.  This may not always be possible in all marriage relationships because sometimes, 1 partner is un-cooperative. This is the type of relationship we all desire and long for.  In this type of relationship, both partners are free to express their thoughts, feelings, and needs without fear of backlash.  Unconditional love and a high respect for each other is paramount.  Decisions are made together, without one partner needing to force their way.  Both people can be seen as equally able to hear from God and make wise decisions.

Typically, in the church circles my wife and I were a part of over the past few years, the first two ways of relating were the only ones we ever saw. We unfortunately fell into these faulty ways of relating to each other as well.  In these types of churches, the only person who really matters in the family is the Husband.  The wife and children only live to serve him.  The husband believes "I matter, you don't" subconsciously, even though he would never say it out loud.  In the church, the same way of thinking is practiced.  Lip-service is given to the importance of women, but they are allowed to participate very little if at all in the actual church meeting.

The wife believes "You matter, I don't".  The wife many times will be unable to really communicate how she really thinks or feels since she subconsciously believes, "I don't matter".  She begins to believe that she was only created to keep the clothes washed, put food on the table, have babies, teach the children, and maybe become an herbal expert :)  Her identity is squashed by this mindset.  She does not believe she can hear from God or play a major role in any decision-making.  Her thoughts, dreams, desires are minimized since the husband's thoughts, dreams, desires are all that matter. 

Some churches will not even allow a woman to speak because they believe that a man is the only one who can really handle theological questions and biblical truth.  Women are only qualified to teach other women and children.  Do you see how damaging this mindset can become when applied in the home?  This means that the woman can never take any viewpoint contrary to her husband and can never disagree with him on spiritual, theological, or practical issues.  This mindset takes a low view of and has no respect for the humanity and intelligence of women.  Bible verses are thrown around and pulled out of context to support this viewpoint.  Any time the bible is used to dominate or control other people, love has just been cast out and the Spirit of Fear has been let in.  There is no fear in love, perfect love casts out fear.  If we men will learn to really love, then our wives can be truly freed from fear.  On the flip-side, the reason people want to stay in control is out of fear.  I remember fearing that my wife might disagree with my decisions, so I didn't even ask her opinion.  I just went right ahead and did them because I was the authority in the house. 

Like I said in my article about Man as priest of the Home, if I would have taken my wife seriously, I would not have blundered into so many mistakes and bad decisions.  We men need to be humble enough to listen to our wives and make decisions together with them.  Any time a decision comes to the point of a power struggle, the quality of the relationship has to be sacrificed. These wrong beliefs will always hinder good communication and good decision making.

Oh, and by the way - these concepts also apply to how we view our children as well. Many a controlling, authoritarian parent has abused their children because they were "unsubmissive". We need to heed well the command to not exasperate our children with bullying and controlling intimidation tactics. They also have feelings and thoughts that need to be respected. If they become disrespectful, there are certainly consequences - but we don't need to bully them into submission.

Paul says we men are to love our wives as Christ loved the church and gave himself for it.  How well are we loving our wives as Christ loves the church?  How well are we giving up ourselves and laying down our lives for our wives?  Jesus lowered himself and became a servant to humanity.  In laying down his life for us, we see the ultimate example of love.  Christ humbled himself and elevated others.  He had a very high view of humanity.  His purpose was not to be served, but to serve.  We men need to learn to serve our wives!  Get this! They do not exist to serve me and meet my needs!  Yes, in a godly relationship, our wives will desire to serve us and meet our needs, but that will never be forced upon them as their "role".

Ephesians also tells us to "submit to one another". Yes, husbands, this implies that there are times where we will need to submit to our wives!  Since our wives do have the spirit of Christ living in them, we are in fact submitting to Christ when we choose to listen to and submit ourselves to what they have to say. Ouch!  see Gen. 21:12 - http://bible.cc/genesis/21-12.htm

Submission/Authority is a minor issue when compared with Love.  Love is the major issue.  Love always wins.  Love does not seek to have it's own way(1 cor 13:5).  Submission/Authority is a lesser form of relationship that at times has to be resorted to when one person isn't in right relationship with God.  However, if true love is present and both people are submitted to God and hearing from him, there will rarely be a need for the Submission/Authority issue to come up.

For example:  Look for a second at how we relate with God.  Do we always relate to God as slave to master?  No, we relate to him as son to father, bride to bridegroom, brothers, family, etc.  I believe the slave to master relationship is a lesser form of relationship that has no place when our primary motivation is love!  Jesus said, "If you love me, keep my commandments".  He didn't say, "Since I am your master and Lord, keep my commandments! 

Unfortunately, many husbands are communicating this type of relational message to their wives.  "Since I am your authority, do what I say!"  "Since I am your head, you have no say in the decisions around here."  "Your feelings and thoughts don't matter since I am the master".  That isn't love.  That isn't 1 Cor. 13:5.

Love is communicated when the relational message that both husband and wife are conveying to each other is "You matter, and so do I".  Since "I matter", when I disagree with you I will speak up and be honest about it in a respectful way.  On the flip-side, it also means I will not insist on my own way, because "you matter" and I respect you.  We have high levels of respect for each other, and we have a high level of respect for our selves.  Since I have a high level of respect for myself, I will not allow another to control or dominate me since I am accountable to God and I will not violate my own conscience.  It also means that since I love you, I will pray for you and even speak up and tell you about it when I see you about to walk over a cliff.  This type of relationship is the only one in which we can be free to be honest with each another and be free to give/receive true love.  True love is not coerced, it is freely given.  In this type of relationship, we are self-controlled, spirit-controlled, and accountable to God.

Cessationism is heresy

Liked this post by Steve Crosby about the errors of Cessationism.  He goes so far as to call it Heresy, I wholeheartedly agree!

http://swordofthekingdom.com/2012/06/02/cessationism-undermines-the-gospel/

The power to do miracles and live a spirit-filled, fruitful, overcoming life is proof that Jesus really rose from the dead.  The power to do miracles by the Holy Spirit validated Jesus' message, it validated the early disciples' message, and it validates our message.

If we don't serve a risen lord who can still do the very same things through our lives today, our message and preaching is in vain!  1 Cor 15:14

Jesus promise was that we would do the very same things he did, and even greater works!
John 14:12
Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.

It is ridiculous to think that miracles ceased with the death of the last Apostle, and it is foolish to believe that God no longer speaks to his people today through Spiritual Gifts, discernment, dreams, visions, etc.  If gifts were given to the church for edification and to build up the early Church, why would God pull them away with the death of the last apostle?  What makes us think we no longer need these gifts today?

God is the same Yesterday, Today, and Forever. The same roadblocks of religious thinking that kept the Pharisees of old from receiving the person of Jesus when he came 2000 years ago are the same roadblocks that keep modern Pharisees from believing in the power and work of the Holy Spirit today.
 
Cessationists hinge most of their beliefs on one passage of scripture that I believe is easily refutable.  They believe that spiritual gifts ceased when the perfect came as described in 1 Cor. 13:8-10
⁸ Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. ⁹ For we know in part and we prophesy in part; ¹⁰ but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away.

Cessationists believe that "the perfect" is referring to the completion of the canon of scripture.  I believe this is an incorrect interpretation for 3 main reasons.
1.  Paul had no idea that there was such a thing as a "canon" of scripture at the time of this writing.
2.  "if there is knowledge, it will be done away". Did knowledge pass away also with the completion of the Canon? No.
3.  verse 12 implies a time when we are face to face with Jesus and have reached a state of complete knowledge.  Even with the completion of the scriptures, none of us can claim to have complete knowledge.
1 Cor. 13:12  For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known.

"Face to face", then, can only refer to when we see Jesus face to face at His coming. John says we will see Him face to face (Rev 22:4), and that when he appears we shall see him as he is (1Jn 3:2).

The time when we will "know fully" has nothing to do with the completion of the canon of scripture.  It is talking about the time when we will see Christ face to face and are literally dwelling in his presence continually.

Spiritual gifts and miracles are necessary until the end of the age when Jesus returns and wraps up history. When we see him face to face and are living in his presence continually, spiritual gifts will no longer be necessary.

Also see:
http://apologetica.us/2012/02/06/why-1-corinthians-138-10-is-not-a-good-text-for-cessationism/

http://www.prophecyeducation.com/cessationism.htm

http://www.amazon.com/2000-Years-Charismatic-Christianity-pentecostal/dp/0884198723
2000 years of charismatic History is a good book that gives first-hand accounts of miracles and spiritual gifts throughout the last 2,000 years.  This book offers undeniable proof that miracles and gifts have never ceased.  Literally hundreds of eyewitness and first-hand accounts of miracles have been recorded after the completion of the Canon of Scripture.  While reading this book, I was amazed at the number of references to spiritual gifts and miracles in the writings of the early church fathers 100-300 AD.


There are many well documented reports of healing miracles. This video in 2 parts is one of them.

The power of a focused Heart

Last year, Ondrea received a prophetic picture while praying for me. In it, she saw my heart like a White horn - when I blew the horn, it had tremendous power to change things.  This means that when my heart is turned and focused intensely toward the Lord, there is great power and anything can happen!  The power of intercession and prayer are magnified when my heart is turned towards the Lord.  Prophetic words and energy can flow from my spirit when my heart is turned towards the Lord.  Just like a horn produces a sound, the energy that is produced from a focused heart is in harmony with the Lord's voice and purposes.  The horn also represents the multiplication of sound that occurs.  God multiplies power and energy when I pray or act in accordance with his desires and heart.  Even if I don't feel anything tangible, I can expect fruit and change when my heart is focused towards God. I love this prophetic picture because it is so clearly portrays a heart that is in union with the Lord's Heart.

I found it to be true that when I am able to keep my heart turned towards the Lord, my faith level soars.  I find it easier to avoid distractions and am full of anticipation for what the Lord is going to do.  When my heart is divided or distracted regarding earthly concerns, my faith level plummets and I find myself faithless, discouraged, and disheartened.

2 Corinthians 3:16-18
¹⁶ But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. ¹⁷ Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. ¹⁸ And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.

When we inwardly turn our hearts toward the Lord, the veil is taken away.  We are able to see clearly and receive truth from God.  Conversely, when our hearts are turned away from the Lord, there is a veil keeping us from seeing clearly.  The veil keeps the light of his love and truth from our hearts.

Matthew 13:22
The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful.

It is impossible to have a passionate, burning heart for the Lord when our lives are filled with distractions and wordly cares.  A heart that is focused on the Lord is in love with him and his words are meaningful to us.  We will hang on his every word and listen intently to his voice.  Similarly, when my heart is focused on my wife and I push out all distractions, my love for her intensifies.

Proverbs 4:23
Watch over your heart with all diligence,
For from it flow the springs of life.

This scripture is a basic principle of how life works that contains great truth. It is an ancient path, so listen carefully.  The eternal principle is this:  "Our hearts contain life, and that life is going to flow into something, so be careful what you let that life flow into."  If we allow the life in our hearts to flow out into things that God does not intend it to - we will have nothing left over to give to the things that are important.  It is imperative to "Watch over your heart", guarding diligently what you allow the life of your heart to flow into.  If we give our hearts over to our jobs, we will have nothing left to give to God or our families.  If we give our heart to making as much money as possible, the spring of life will run dry eventually.  If the life-flow of our hearts is not rooted in God and aligned with God's heart, that life in our heart will eventually run dry.

Matthew 6:21
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

This scripture contains another, similar basic principle of life:  The flow of life from our hearts will be directed toward whatever we treasure.

This is why Jesus said we cannot serve two masters.  We will find it increasingly difficult when the flow of life from our heart is divided up into two separate streams.  One stream flowing into the things of the world, and the other stream flowing into the things of God.  We will find that when our hearts are intensely focused on the things of God, the worldly stream dries up.  Conversely, when our hearts are intensely focused on worldly things, the God stream dries up.  We cannot maintain two streams flowing in opposite directions!  It is pride and foolishness to think we can!  Believe me, I have tried it and failed from experience!

When we are united with God and our heart is turned towards him; when we have surrendered to him, his spirit can flow through us. Then, rivers of living water can flow through us as John 7:38 says  ^"He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.”

On the practical side (help for when our heart isn't focused on the Lord):
I have found that is quite difficult to turn my heart toward God when I am believing lies about him.  Like the prodigal son, I believe the Father might be angry with me so that lie keeps me from turning to him and receiving the love and rest I so desperately need.  We need to renounce lies about God and receive the truth about his true nature and our true nature before we can have an open, honest heart that is turned towards him.  When we are believing lies or we are bound in sin, we will continue to hide and run from him.  We will build up walls of self-protection from him and from others.  It is important when we are in this place to call out to him for help.  I have also found it helpful to renounce lies and speak truth out loud and/or bring them to another person.  If there is sin, confess it to God and if necessary to anothe believer. When you do this, it breaks the hold of the lies and then you can be free to behold him with an unveiled face again.  I have found it helpful to ask my wife for prayer when I start to fall into the performance trap and feel my relationship with God beginning to slip.  Not only does it break the cycle in my head, it lets her know I have needs and weaknesses that she can be praying and encouraging me in.

I love in the movie "Seven days in Utopia", the main character is a golfer who had lived for nothing but Golf since he was a child.  Pushed hard by a Father driven to make him succeed, he finally breaks down and sees God's truth.  Here are the lies he wrote down and buried:

1. My golf scores are a reflection of my self-worth.
2. Failure in golf is failure in life.
3. Success in golf will bring the fulfillment that I long for.
4. My calling in life is to play golf.
5. The opinions of others are paramount in the choices I make.
6. God is a crutch for the weak.
7. Tradition is sacred and never to be challenged

I have also found it helpful to prayerfully make a list of lies, then make another list of God's truth.  Here is a sample list that I wrote up about a year ago.

1. Lie - God is only available to me if I have been good enough today.  If I have prayed this morning, been nice to people and basically been perfect.
Truth - God is near to me, will flow through me, and is available to me at all times, whether I have been perfect or not.  In fact, I need him even more when I have failed.  Look at the Joy of the father when his prodigal son came home!

2. Lie - Tomorrow will be a better day.  Even though today is really screwed up, a good night's sleep and some time will fix things.  I can't approach God today so I must resign myself to failure and misery today.
Truth - God works Today!  If I turn my heart and repent now, God will meet me now!  I don't have to wait until tomorrow.  I can have a soft heart again now!  No day is too screwed up for God to redeem now!  Hebrews 3:7,8 - "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts"

3. Lie - I have screwed up too badly for God to save me. In fact, I am a screwed up person. I am a lost cause.  Who am I to enter God's presence and draw near to him.  He probably wants nothing to do with me now.
Truth - I am God's Son!  I am cleansed, forgiven, perfect, righteous, holy.  I can go boldly to God because I am in Christ!

4. Lie - I am a failure and will never rise above the mistakes I have made.  Things will continue the way they always have.  I am destined for defeat and failure all my days.  I will not succeed or accomplish anything of worth.
Truth - I can do all things through Christ.  I am more than a conqueror.  There is now no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus.  No failure is too great for God to redeem and change.  No cycle of defeat too deep for him to break.  I can and will move mountains and defeat giants by Faith.

5. Lie - I don't have what it takes to do what God is asking.  I'm not gifted enough, don't hear from God well enough, am not smart enough.  I'm too selfish and don't have the right personality or enough charisma.  I'm not a very good leader.
Truth - Joshua 1:9 - Have I not commanded you?  Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.  The same spirit that raised Christ from the dead lives in me!  I am complete in him.  I have all I need in him!  Galatians 9:8 And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things, at all times, Having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
I choose to receive from God everything I need to be a blessing to others.  God has blessed me and will continue to pour out his love, gifts, wisdom, strength, provision, and care so I can pour out to the people around me!

I also created another similar list of lies/truth towards the end of this article.
http://roadofkingdom.blogspot.com/2012/02/living-by-faith.html